I feel like I am sitting stagnant in a river, collecting moss. My job is the thing that I put 100% of my energy and focus into and it has got me nowhere. With the start date of my esthetician program very slowly approaching, I am getting more and more antsy to begin the path that will actually get me places. Makeup, skin care, and educating myself on all things esthetics is what I want to be doing. I want to immerse myself in things that are not menial and petty. I want to get a move on with my adult life, not work at a mall. I understand that people make a long and fulfilling career out of the retail industry, but that is not the choice I am making for myself. I would go absolutely bonkers. I am at the point in my tenure with the company that I need something more.
Most days, I love my job. One of my favorite things about it is working with clients and building a rapport with them. I love starting new clients on our product especially because I believe in it. I am at the point though, that internally, I am at capacity for bullsh*t. The small, meaningless things have surmounted the meniscus of my patience, and I am really, truly ready to tackle the next chapter of my life. I am ready to make something of myself, to lay the groundwork for a healthy and well-rounded life. May 31st can not get here any faster if it tried. After today, I have little tolerance for goings-on at my workplace. Starting esthetician school will be a wonderful and welcomed change. Something to refocus myself. I don't want to worry about my job, because it is just that - a job. I come home annoyed, stressed and frustrated a lot of times from work, which I find sad. My job should be fun, but like I said, my tolerance for any additional frivolity is limited and that gets the best of me often.
Here's to bigger and better things, to crossroads, and to brighter futures. I swear, I'm not as negative nancy normally. I just had to let some steam off. I will, from here forward, focus my energies to looking forward to the positivity that comes with the anticipation of starting new.
